Random Ramblings

OK so i haven't been on here in ages. A lot of stuff with my situation has been going on and didn't want to get on here and spout off about it, doesn't help anyone.

• Went to the mall today. Still searching for signs of the recession although it is the day before Mother's day and I'm sure everyone's out buying goodies for Mom

• Ben's baseball team scored an exciting win last night although Ben himself went hitless. Good to see that a team can still win despite their best player (slight bias) having an off night.

• Carving up the last details of what made us an "us". It's still sad, it still hurts but still necessary.

• Last week's open house was pointless. No one came. Life will be significantly easier in the grands scheme of things if this house sells by the end of July. Not very impressed by the motivation of the realtor who continues to play the "economy" card. Another open house in 3 weeks. Fingers crossed.

• Had a conversation with a friend who's at the beginning of a situation like mine right now. I understand that the law treats Dads the way it does to combat the "deadbeat" minority but what about the rest of us?

• Photos from my aunt's funeral of the extended Blackmore family together made me feel very nostalgic. Also made me feel very old seeing cousin's who've aged in the scores of years since I've seen them. I really don't see myself as having aged that much but I'm perhaps in denial. By the way 67 is way too young to go.

• Slept for 10 hours last night which is really unusual for me but obviously i needed it.

• Got an email from the one member of the "other" family who it saddened me to lose touch with, asking if i wanted to get together later this month. Looking forward to it.

• Had a really weird encounter with some former friends last weekend. People who i'd extended myself for and opened my home and wallet to on a regular basis. They couldn't even look me it the eye. I'm still surprises how people have reacted to me in this situation without ever considering that there might, just might be another side to it all. I know now how the lepers of old must have felt. (I'm doing what i said i wouldn't aren't I?)

• Spending Mother's day tomorrow with a friend and their family who are going through an incredibly rough time right now.

• Looking forward to 10 days in New York with the kids at the end of June. Dad's already bought the Mets tickets!

• I really, really miss my Mum